学习着慢慢走出来……

我还在学习着慢慢走出来,因为我做不来……时间，果然是灵丹……现在说不痛是假的，但至少，真的没以前刚开始时那么痛了……睡眠也比以前好了……但是黑眼圈比以前严重了......T_T

带我走……who can bring me go away??or lead me out??

I'm damn tired....feel bored..stress......who can lead me out??I feel lost again...why and when I lost...I don't know....When I was tired...the place that I miss so much is my home, my parents' smile....Sorry daddy, don't miss me so much..I know you miss me..How I know??Your voice told me...I will going back on this weekend...and please don't worry for me to stay in Kampar here...

泪……

泪……你可以变重一点吗？……你太轻、太容易滑下来了……你太容易落下了…还是控制你的神经线变了才让你弄得如此容易滑落？……神经线，你能变坚强点吗？……

我承诺过我自己，我不会再为这些事，留下一滴眼泪……刚开始时我以为我做到了……但到了今天，我才发现……我根本做不到……

你可以坚强一点吗？？

Lost...

I have a long time didn't update anythings here-around 2 months and 21 days. There has some changes in that 2 month days.The first that I have to congratulate myself is that I have became a Year 2 student, hwaiting!!Finish your studies in 2013 sharply!!!......Maybe you will think that I was crazy...haha...I really crazy  already.Actually  I feel lost since this sem start. Maybe can say that I never laugh and smile "sincerely". You maybe feel nothing wrong with me, saw me smile, laugh and so on...but actually when I went back and think it back, can't make me smile again and stay down till sleep. Thats why I always go to Yuan's room after I settle everything and only back when I feel tired.

I can say that I feel lonely since this sem start. This feeling has follow me since last sem, but this time, it has becomes stronger and stronger. Maybe what sian said is true, is my "psycho effect".......

You may not understand what I wrote...because I also don't know what I writing....I really feel lost at this moment....

笑容smile...

Well, I have such a long time didn't post any new thing in this blog. Nevermind, only few people know about this blog. Now is week 12 of the Year 1 Trimester 3. I feel tension right now. All because of MY DEAREST lecturer, Ms. S. I didn't see the actual updated barlist of English for Mass Comm, thats why I tension. This sem is really stress enough!!!!!!!!!!!!!!I worry on everythingss!!!CGPA!!financial problems and so on.....and smile on my face is slowly dissapear from my face. Just like what Hebe sang: 对着镜子我承诺，迟早我会还这张脸一堆笑容……I have promised myself, I will smile more...but I know that, I need a long long time...

Everythings that happened recently were not that smooth....made my tired sad enough~~both from physically and mentally...stressful~~~too many things happened...

是我做梦你有改变什么……对着镜子我承诺……迟早我回环这张脸一对笑容~~可是那一堆笑容要等一段时间才会回来……你的一推……我不懂是有心还是无心……好像把我推得好远……我最害怕的东西出现了——距离感……是我敏感了吧……我最近都很down……想很多东西……我真的很累……唉~~

May Sian~~~SUPRISE!!!!

haha,sian.....actually is nothing suprise la~~~~hahaha.....u sudah terperangkap!!!!!!haha....nevermind....have you suprised when you log in my blogger???...hahah.....can u get the CNY feel??...actually...i reali hope can suprise you...but i don know wat can suprise u...XD....go and sleep early ba~~nitez..XP

Finally~~到最后了~~

This sem was finished unofficially yesterday...hehe...feel lazy to study...XD...I took the tamil oral test already!!!!haha...although the mark is not high..but I satisfy with it already...Final exam is near...but I still don't have mood to study...Maybe I too relax already...Every day pps till I wanna sleep since I wake up...

I'm still stay in Kampar...Maybe you suprise why I still stay in Kampar...Coz every week you all can't find me in Kampar since I finish the class, rite??...I don't know why...I'm the people that advise other to back hometown to accompany parents...they old already...but..why this time...I become the one that advise by other to back hometown...Honestly...and forgive on my bad.....is just because I feel that...annoying!!!.....Every time I back to hometown....my mom....she sure will...........................my ears start to feel tired already....but the problem now is that....I feel lonely to stay in Kampar.....I won't have this feel last year when I still in foundation...That time, I can stay at Kampar for whole month....The situation was just same....nobody accompany me to take lunch or dinner....stay in my room ....but now....why I can't familiar with this situation???...I should be "immune" with this....why I can't familiar with this nowadays???..honestly...I scare the feel of lonely too....

Well, don't worry about me after you read this....Stephy that you know....is not that weak....she was strong and manage it well...^__^...is just like what Hebe sang...我寂寞寂寞就好……