人，就是如此奇怪……可以用犯贱来形容吧~~有些坏的东西，你想把它抓住，但是不由得你不去放手，否着会造成伤害，自己内疚……有些好的东西，你明明可以抓住好好珍惜，可是你却偏偏要把它放走，也是造成伤害，不过伤的是别人的好意……还有到最后自己不好受……人啊，你又何必如此犯贱呢？……
不过，林峰唱得，还有这个好友……人嘛，最重要的还是要有双耳朵听你说手~~~
人啊，you have to learn how to take the first step……要不然，你永远都会原地踏步!!!!!
Tuesday, September 6, 2011
Friday, September 2, 2011
有感而发……is it inspiration?..
最近有些事……都令我很把它抒发出……之前一直有想把它写出来，就可使因为自己的cincai懒惰，就当没一回事了……其实也不是什么不开心的事啦……只是想主题一样，有感而发……考试快到了，可是却没心情读书温习……还有七天就考试了，心还真的不懂去了哪里。现在的我啊，可是刚把东西丢一边来这里偷懒……
在你们眼中，我给你们的印象是怎样，我不在乎……曾几何时，我还真的很看不开的……不过时间真的会改变一些东西……有些事，真的在乎不了这么多……也许我真的是典型的双子座吧……我还真的不了解自己……有人说我个性开朗、悲观、脆弱、坚强、白目、认真、拘谨、放纵……以上种种，我还真的不懂那个是我的个性……脑子里，想法、看法、观感……总是不只有一个罢了……自己到底喜欢什么、讨厌什么，到今时今日我还找不到specific的答案……所以你可能会看到很多个不一样的我……所以嘛，我就干脆做个空壳吧……不过前提的是，要是美丽能干的空壳……你们可能有时搞不懂我在想什么，神经兮兮的…………衷心跟你们道歉和谢谢你们你们的关心和容忍……我想说，我所说的没一句道歉和谢谢都是衷心的，这个我很恨清楚，虽然我搞不懂我自己个性想什么……如果我的行为或道歉有若毛过你的话……paiseh……
在你们眼中，我给你们的印象是怎样，我不在乎……曾几何时，我还真的很看不开的……不过时间真的会改变一些东西……有些事，真的在乎不了这么多……也许我真的是典型的双子座吧……我还真的不了解自己……有人说我个性开朗、悲观、脆弱、坚强、白目、认真、拘谨、放纵……以上种种，我还真的不懂那个是我的个性……脑子里，想法、看法、观感……总是不只有一个罢了……自己到底喜欢什么、讨厌什么，到今时今日我还找不到specific的答案……所以你可能会看到很多个不一样的我……所以嘛，我就干脆做个空壳吧……不过前提的是，要是美丽能干的空壳……你们可能有时搞不懂我在想什么，神经兮兮的…………衷心跟你们道歉和谢谢你们你们的关心和容忍……我想说，我所说的没一句道歉和谢谢都是衷心的，这个我很恨清楚，虽然我搞不懂我自己个性想什么……如果我的行为或道歉有若毛过你的话……paiseh……
Thursday, September 1, 2011
Saturday, August 20, 2011
end..
now is almost the end of the trimester...Now is the time to end everything, neither academic or personal issue. Luckily and finally,I found the balance point already...On the beginning pf this trimester I was really feel uncomfortable with everything, balance point was lost...Haha, I finally found it back...
I not going to denial that I always lost my balance point easily. Sze has asked me before, is that something happened last time?..Such a good question for me...In memory, nothing special happened, just like a normal kid..Got a few thing I can remember but not that clear..It's a memory in kindergarten. I have told a lie to my mom that I was being bully by my friend ( till nowadays I still can't remember whether he's really bullied me or I hate his face and tell this lie)and my mom go to find that kesian child when she send me to school...My mom is fierce lo...Really very sorry, that child. I only remember till this part. I have try my best to recall back on why I have to tell this lie.So sorry.
Other things, my mom always cane me and throw me outside the house till my neighbor still remember about it nowadays. So many video appear in my mind now...My daddy is hug me when he is doing orders of the customer (my parents was open restaurant last time)..and me and my parents always go to cinema and shopping during weekend by Proton saga o..haha...I using saga nowadays but it's new version. My mom told me that last time there are 2 version of saga in the balcony of the house in Sungai Siput..but sagas leave us one by one after restaurant closed and when my parents buy the house that I was staying now...After that, the only transportation in my home is bicycle..Haha, I was smiling now, you know why??..Really many "video" about the bicycle with me and my parents..
When there is only bicycle as our main transportation, my parents are really no choice, They have to fetch me by bicycle, but I can't remember whether my mom fetch me more or my daddy fetch me more..But what I can remember is my daddy..Haha, my daddy is really funny. When my mom is staying in hospital to give birth for my sister, he always fetch me to eat "wan tan mee" by using that bicycle..I was 7yrs old that time and going to school by bus, Before I enter the bus, I asked my dad, you will cook tonite rite??I was naif and trusted my daddy that he can cook. When I'm happy to see him after get out from the bus, he told me that, "Come, we go out and eat!!".haiz..Can you imagine, the road condition last time was worst and I was sitting behind on the bicycle?I was really bored when my mom staying in hospital and in my grandma house. Every morning I have to go to my neighbour's house while my father is going out to work. My neighbor is a tuition teacher, so, it's normal to call me to do exercise every morning till my father get me chicken rice and accompany me to waiting for bus.I also wonder how I survive with that bored...
My daddy really sayang me..hehe...that day my mom told me that my daddy has fetch me to funfair last time by bicycle. That funfair quite far away from my house, it's opposite to Emas nowadays..Haha..TQ daddy, saranghae..^^
I not going to denial that I always lost my balance point easily. Sze has asked me before, is that something happened last time?..Such a good question for me...In memory, nothing special happened, just like a normal kid..Got a few thing I can remember but not that clear..It's a memory in kindergarten. I have told a lie to my mom that I was being bully by my friend ( till nowadays I still can't remember whether he's really bullied me or I hate his face and tell this lie)and my mom go to find that kesian child when she send me to school...My mom is fierce lo...Really very sorry, that child. I only remember till this part. I have try my best to recall back on why I have to tell this lie.So sorry.
Other things, my mom always cane me and throw me outside the house till my neighbor still remember about it nowadays. So many video appear in my mind now...My daddy is hug me when he is doing orders of the customer (my parents was open restaurant last time)..and me and my parents always go to cinema and shopping during weekend by Proton saga o..haha...I using saga nowadays but it's new version. My mom told me that last time there are 2 version of saga in the balcony of the house in Sungai Siput..but sagas leave us one by one after restaurant closed and when my parents buy the house that I was staying now...After that, the only transportation in my home is bicycle..Haha, I was smiling now, you know why??..Really many "video" about the bicycle with me and my parents..
When there is only bicycle as our main transportation, my parents are really no choice, They have to fetch me by bicycle, but I can't remember whether my mom fetch me more or my daddy fetch me more..But what I can remember is my daddy..Haha, my daddy is really funny. When my mom is staying in hospital to give birth for my sister, he always fetch me to eat "wan tan mee" by using that bicycle..I was 7yrs old that time and going to school by bus, Before I enter the bus, I asked my dad, you will cook tonite rite??I was naif and trusted my daddy that he can cook. When I'm happy to see him after get out from the bus, he told me that, "Come, we go out and eat!!".haiz..Can you imagine, the road condition last time was worst and I was sitting behind on the bicycle?I was really bored when my mom staying in hospital and in my grandma house. Every morning I have to go to my neighbour's house while my father is going out to work. My neighbor is a tuition teacher, so, it's normal to call me to do exercise every morning till my father get me chicken rice and accompany me to waiting for bus.I also wonder how I survive with that bored...
My daddy really sayang me..hehe...that day my mom told me that my daddy has fetch me to funfair last time by bicycle. That funfair quite far away from my house, it's opposite to Emas nowadays..Haha..TQ daddy, saranghae..^^
Sunday, August 14, 2011
Monday, July 25, 2011
带我走……who can bring me go away??or lead me out??
I'm damn tired....feel bored..stress......who can lead me out??I feel lost again...why and when I lost...I don't know....When I was tired...the place that I miss so much is my home, my parents' smile....Sorry daddy, don't miss me so much..I know you miss me..How I know??Your voice told me...I will going back on this weekend...and please don't worry for me to stay in Kampar here...
Monday, July 4, 2011
泪……
泪……你可以变重一点吗？……你太轻、太容易滑下来了……你太容易落下了…还是控制你的神经线变了才让你弄得如此容易滑落？……神经线，你能变坚强点吗？……
我承诺过我自己，我不会再为这些事，留下一滴眼泪……刚开始时我以为我做到了……但到了今天，我才发现……我根本做不到……
你可以坚强一点吗？？
我承诺过我自己，我不会再为这些事，留下一滴眼泪……刚开始时我以为我做到了……但到了今天，我才发现……我根本做不到……
你可以坚强一点吗？？
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