笑容smile...

Well, I have such a long time didn't post any new thing in this blog. Nevermind, only few people know about this blog. Now is week 12 of the Year 1 Trimester 3. I feel tension right now. All because of MY DEAREST lecturer, Ms. S. I didn't see the actual updated barlist of English for Mass Comm, thats why I tension. This sem is really stress enough!!!!!!!!!!!!!!I worry on everythingss!!!CGPA!!financial problems and so on.....and smile on my face is slowly dissapear from my face. Just like what Hebe sang: 对着镜子我承诺，迟早我会还这张脸一堆笑容……I have promised myself, I will smile more...but I know that, I need a long long time...

Everythings that happened recently were not that smooth....made my tired sad enough~~both from physically and mentally...stressful~~~too many things happened...

是我做梦你有改变什么……对着镜子我承诺……迟早我回环这张脸一对笑容~~可是那一堆笑容要等一段时间才会回来……你的一推……我不懂是有心还是无心……好像把我推得好远……我最害怕的东西出现了——距离感……是我敏感了吧……我最近都很down……想很多东西……我真的很累……唉~~

May Sian~~~SUPRISE!!!!

haha,sian.....actually is nothing suprise la~~~~hahaha.....u sudah terperangkap!!!!!!haha....nevermind....have you suprised when you log in my blogger???...hahah.....can u get the CNY feel??...actually...i reali hope can suprise you...but i don know wat can suprise u...XD....go and sleep early ba~~nitez..XP

Finally~~到最后了~~

This sem was finished unofficially yesterday...hehe...feel lazy to study...XD...I took the tamil oral test already!!!!haha...although the mark is not high..but I satisfy with it already...Final exam is near...but I still don't have mood to study...Maybe I too relax already...Every day pps till I wanna sleep since I wake up...

I'm still stay in Kampar...Maybe you suprise why I still stay in Kampar...Coz every week you all can't find me in Kampar since I finish the class, rite??...I don't know why...I'm the people that advise other to back hometown to accompany parents...they old already...but..why this time...I become the one that advise by other to back hometown...Honestly...and forgive on my bad.....is just because I feel that...annoying!!!.....Every time I back to hometown....my mom....she sure will...........................my ears start to feel tired already....but the problem now is that....I feel lonely to stay in Kampar.....I won't have this feel last year when I still in foundation...That time, I can stay at Kampar for whole month....The situation was just same....nobody accompany me to take lunch or dinner....stay in my room ....but now....why I can't familiar with this situation???...I should be "immune" with this....why I can't familiar with this nowadays???..honestly...I scare the feel of lonely too....

Well, don't worry about me after you read this....Stephy that you know....is not that weak....she was strong and manage it well...^__^...is just like what Hebe sang...我寂寞寂寞就好……

Long time no see~~好久不见~~

Long time din update my blog....How are you recently??~~I'm fine....but just a bit busy...Last week why i din update my blog??...haiz~~it just because of the moral campaign...Actually is not that busy one...It just keep on reherseal...and waste time...I don't know how was the result of the moral campaign...I only know that..my leg was injured, just because of the high heel shoes...T__T.....

Today got mid-term test for moral at 9am in Block H...well, do u know what time to take that test ar??..is around 9.20am...we reached there at around 8.45am...We wait at there almost 1 hour....haiz~~waste time....

Wakaka, after exam and take breakfast in McD...haha....I driving to Ipoh with my friends!!!happy!!This was the 1st time I drive to Jusco le~~~haha!!!!!and I bought pair of shoes...quite expensive la..T__T(my wallet crying...)but...it's comfortable....so it's worth la....hehe~~ 

What a tired and moody day??

today...is very tired...on wasting time...haiz....keep on waiting.....moody....my daddy called me that the road tax can't be renew..??Why??...His said...my car kena saman......T^T.....why??....where and when i kena saman??...haiz....i wanna sleep la...2mrw gt presentation ....bcoz of my lazy...i will wear high heel shoes for whole day...wish my leg won't be hurt again....

Raining day~~雨天……

最近每天都在下雨，太好了！！……尤其是在下雨，凉快极了！！不过，下雨时……凝望着窗外的风景……感到了一丝丝的寂寞……不懂这感觉从何来~~

不懂是我人缘不够好，朋友不多啦，还是一直以来没出去吃的习惯所以找不到kaki一起去吃晚餐啦，还是什么……每天晚上找人去吃晚餐都很难……有时，感觉上还要去“求”人一起去吃……现在想回，还真的有够白痴的~~别人不想跟你吃晚餐，又何必强求呢？？圆圆啊，圆圆，你是时候习惯一个人享受晚餐啦……不用强求，别人不要去就拉倒，不必说这么多的……脸皮不是要这样变厚的~~脸皮要变厚的话，在presentation是慢慢去变厚吧~~

有时得空时，回想，我身边到底有多少朋友……你知道有几多的吗？只是见面时say hi的……真的很多啊……能谈得来的呢？？还真的不多……不过已经很足够~~有时候，真的很羡慕身边的朋友……听着他们说和中学同学的趣事……听着他们说回家乡时和中学同学的聚会……看着他们和中学同学讲电话msn……看着看着，听着听着，我在想：你呢？你又和你的中学朋友联络吗？别说聚会了~就连联络也很少……还有联络的，不到十个~~经过前几个月的一些事情，又有一个变得更少联络了……那个朋友，不是不好，只能说，相见好，同住难……每次回家……一年里，大概只和几个朋友见几次面……不上十次……和我身边的朋友比起来，真是少得可怜……甚至有时候我妈都会问我，你怎么没去找你朋友啊？？……有时我真的不懂怎样答她~~只能说，我真的没什么人缘……算了吧……

再看部落格的你，还记得我给你的第一印象吗？？是很酷的？还是热情的？？哈哈……通常答案都是--〉酷~~但当你认识我久了，有没有觉得说，我的个性和我给你的印象有点出入叻？？是不是觉得我笑点很低叻？？……不怕老实讲……我很怕生~~遇到刚认识的人……不懂和他讲什么……也不懂他是怎样的一个人……等下如果他是小气的人叻，乱讲话不是死了都不懂什么是咯？？所以就选择diam啦……慢慢观察他是怎样的人~~在选择用什么方式和他沟通……可能就是因为我diam时，样子很凶，好像不好惹……没办法啦……样子天生的~~

Rest in Peace...安息吧……

今天在玩facabook时，看到一个link……蛮好奇是什么的，就按进去看看咯~~唉，看了还真叫人心痛的……一个叫Chloe的女生，不幸在车祸中去世了……她是UTAR生……If I didn't get it wrong……她是在上星期，在westlake附近被车撞倒的……听说当时她当时坐motor的，被一辆名贵房车撞倒的……前几天经过事发现场还能看到蛮多碎片的，可想而知，撞击力多大啊~~同是女生，学生，真的觉得他这么走了很可惜……只能说这一切都是命运注定了……我蛮替他身边所爱他的人感到心痛……这么快就离开他们了……虽然我不认识你，但我会替你祈祷的~~安息吧……再看部落格的你，也和我一样吧……替这位女生祈祷吧~~

马路，真的如虎口……我真的厌倦驾车了……很多人都说我好命，有车驾……对！我不否认我很幸福，一有license就有车驾……可是，我真的觉得驾车好累，压力好大~~如果可以选择的话，我宁愿没车驾，当一个被载的人，而不是载人的人……一讲到载人，唉~~我真的还没懂得怎样拒绝人……有时，不是很想，可是，又想不到拒绝他的理由，就答应在他咯……反正助人为快乐之本嘛……反正也顺路……有时给脸我的好朋友，结果就搞到我要超载！！！！我真的很讨厌超载！！！！！因为，他们给我一种感觉就是，不用客气啊,当作是自己的车好了，左踢一脚，右踢一脚，弄到我车肮脏到……要我抹车洗车没关系啦~~你知道吗？？当你抹干净哦，%…*·##￥%！%&*花了哦！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！可能你会觉得我看不开啦，但……我真的很在乎那辆车……它对我有很特别很特别的意义的……如果选择命或者这辆车，两者只能留一个，我会选择把这辆车完美无缺地留下来给我家人……